My journey towards spiritual enlightenment began on a pivotal morning, March 19, 2022. It was a morning marked not by sunshine and birdsong, but by the weight of a relationship that had slowly eroded my sense of self over two long years. It was a morning when yet another argument, seemingly about nothing, served as the catalyst for my awakening.

Returning to Atlanta late the previous night from burying a loved one, I had suggested a trip to Washington DC with the hope of sharing meaningful experiences with my partner and his son. Reflecting on missed opportunities to tour the museums and sites during my own time in the capitaL, I wanted to seize the chance to explore its sights with them. Little did I know that this simple suggestion would unravel a truth I had been unwilling to confront - this relationship was toxic!

In a moment of clarity, I chose to record the ensuing argument, a decision driven by the need to validate my reality. The man I loved, admired, and trusted was revealed to be a master of manipulation, kind to every woman at work, supporting his ex wife in every way possible, but delighting in my pain and systematically breaking me down. It was a betrayal that cut deep, reminiscent of past wounds inflicted by my own father; this seemingly “nice guy” was my father reincarnated!

Feeling adrift in a sea of despair, I reached my breaking point that morning. Consumed by feelings of worthlessness, I made a desperate attempt to escape the agony by swallowing a bottle of sleeping pills and retreating between two trees where i fell asleep. Awakening in a hospital hours later, I was confronted not with relief but with the harsh reality of my failed suicide attempt.

Even amidst the sterile walls of the hospital, his torment persisted, demanding reassurance of my love for him while I grappled with the recent loss of a loved one, and feeling like the ultimate failure for not leaving this realm. meanwhile, he was engaging in sexual intercourse with multiple women. he then proceeded to have sex with me as if he hadn’t cheated, his final act of torture. It wasn't until a year later that I came to understand the insidious nature of his actions, recognizing them as covert narcissistic abuse.

Though the journey has been filled with pain and disillusionment, it has also been one of profound revelation and growth. Each step forward brings me closer to finding my sense of self and embracing the light that shines within. as I continue to share my story, I illuminate the path for others who may find themselves trapped in the shadows of pure evil, manipulation and deceit.

This awakening, though born of adversity, has become the beacon of light guiding me on my healing journey toward self-discovery. at the time, the road ahead was daunting, I walked it with the courage of one who has found my truth and refused to be silenced any longer. It has taken me two and a half years of healing, celibacy, and remaining single to find who I am and there are so many opportunities now accessible that I never dreamed were possible for me! All I had to do was say “yes” to my healing and thank the Universe!